July 31, 2008

Nawaitu.

Hello people~!;)
Well,since I don't have anything to do right now,.so I've decided to write something in my blog.I dunno what to write,but I remember one of my friend used to ask me this question:
'Ita,aku takut aku akan bukak tudung aku,sbb aku cm dah ade perasaan utk itu.Aku tgk ramai kawan2 aku dah start bukak tudung da skg.Hurm,.cane ni,.ape pendapat ko?'
(actually I rephrase the question,cant really remember the exact question)

Hurm,aku nih bukan warak sgt nak ckp pasal agama nih,and xde la tinggi sgt ilmu agama,but I have my own opinion pasal pakai tudung ni,esp those yg stay kat overseas,yg Islam bukan official religion,I know what u guys had been through,mmg bukan mudah,.And myb some people think yg aku xlayak ckp pasal ni coz I'm not good enough,.but once again,its just an opinion.hehe

Well,I think pemakaian tudung ni sume bergantung pada NIAT.apekah niat kite utk pakai tudung? kalo kite pakai tudung sekadar fesyen,sbb tu wujud kekadang bile org tu pakai bj kurung,dia pakai tudung,kalo pakai jeans,tudungnye hilang.and ade plak org pakai tudung sbb sekadar nak melawa,kalo dia rs dia lawa pakai tudung,dia pakai,and kalo dia rs dia xlawa pakai,dia bukak.and ade plak org yg pakai tudung just sekadar pakai(cukup syarat je),sbb tu wujud org yg pakai tudung,tp kat kawasan rumah,kat halaman rumah ke,xpakai tudung or org lelaki yg bukan muhrim dtg umah,xpakai tudung and ade gak yg letak gamba kat fs xpakai tudung,tp sebenarnye,dia pakai tudung.hurm,and myb ade lg laa sbb2 laen yg kalo nak dihuraikan,mmg ler panjang berjela.

And if someone pakai tudung,mmg sbb niat dia nak tutup aurat,I think,sume bende2 kat atas tu xkan jadi.it so simple.xyah la kot nak aku huraikan panjang2.And aku sendiri pon kadang2,takut gak kalo aku TERbukak tdung kan one day,but ini jugak sbg peringatan utk diri aku sendiri,and those people yg bace this article,please remind me,ok?:)

And that what I answered her question.And kinda interesting gak laa.huhu.well,its all about niat:)and tiada paksaan dlm Islam.ekeke.:D

July 30, 2008

Opinion.

'Tuhan tu tak tgk ape yg kite buat,tp Dia tgk hati kita', tu yg mak aku slalu sgt pesan kat aku.hurm,memule tu,rs cm xmake sense gak,tp bile pk2 balik,and teliti the words,maksudnye mmg mendalam.

Sometimes kite slalu akan judge org based ape yg kite nampak(even kite sedar or not),cthnye kalo kite tgk org tu pakai tudung labuh,pakai jubah slalu,slalu ngaji,ckp pon lembut,solat xpenah tinggal and compare dgn org kite tgk org yg pakai jeans,tshirt,tudung pon xde lah labuh,sure kite ckp org yg pakai jubah sentiasa tu mesti lagi baek dr org yg pakai tshirt tu. Sekali pandang mmg rs cm betul,tp xsemestinye org yg 'nampak baek' hatinye pon baek. Aku bukan ckp kosong,but its all from my experience,.Mmg betul la Tuhan tu Maha Adil,even lame mane pon disorokkan kejahatan yg bertopengkan 'tudung labuh' tu,akhirnye org tau jugak..

So mmg xgune ape bende yg kita buat,ngaji,qiam,solat kalo ati xbaek,nak mendengki kat org..Biarlah beserdahana,tp insyaAllah,hati baek,tenang. And thats why I think that sentence yg my mum ckp tu make sense to me.

Well,it is just my opinion,based on my experience,so kalo ade sape2 yg xsetuju tu,mtk maaf banyak2 lah ye.hehe;)

July 29, 2008

10 things people do not know about me. (cont.)

4. Saya akan jd sgt bad mood jika saye kelaparan yg teramat.That's why i need the emergency chocolate:(

5.Mase kecik2 dulu,slalu sgt nangis.setiap pagi nak g skola,bgn tido mst nangis,and kalo nangis,kuat gile bg 1kampung dengar suare plus hentak2 kaki and guling2 atas lantai.haha:P

mm..later sambung lagi:D

Lucky - Jason Mraz ft Colbie Caillat

Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh


p:s: currently addicted with this song+_+

July 28, 2008

10 things people do not know about me.

1. I like cats more than kids.

2. Beberapa kali msuk hospital,sbb accident(langgar lembu),sakit(gastrik yg dasattt),jatuh longkang(jahit kat kepala),etc:D

3.Like to write story,I have a collection of short stories(tp xpenah bg org bace,just for hobby:D)

more on this later..:D

July 27, 2008

it just like the ghosts;)

hello everybody,
well,everyone knows i guess the school reopens tomorrow,and the busy-terms is about to begin~!owho~~
this sem i take 4 subjects,including engineering analysis B,french B,fundamental to signals and systems and electric circuits 3.wow.wow.wow.i dunno,but i think its gonna be hard,and well,.to be honest i am pretty scared for the subjects,even i havent learn it yet.but, i remember this one phrase i used to tell iqah,'jgn berundur sebelum berperang!',and i smile to myself:)

Hurm,.I think,everything happens because we made it happened.Just take a very simple example, I remember my friend used to tell me this : ghosts exist because we think they are exist.,because if we look the ghost in asian countries such as malaysia,they are always described as muke putih,rambut panjang,duduk bertenggek kat atas pokok,gigi tajam,and sometimes they call it langsuir,pontianak,jembalang and that sort of things.On the other hand, ghost in western countries,they are always described as muke smart,tp gigi panjang dan tajam,pakai coat,kekadang terbang malam2,hisap darah,they call it as dracula,and whatsoever.ok,berbalik kpd persoalan,kenapa ghosts mesti different from one another depends on the country?couldnt it be the same?sbb kalo ikutkan patutnye same je kan,coz they are just ghosts!haaa..then i came to the conclusion,it just because we think they are like that,we describe it that way,and it would happens the way we describe it.menarik kan?;)

So,same goes to other perspectives of life.If we really think,we can do it,and we really strive for it,we can make it happens!nobody knows what are we capable of,even diri kite sendiri,we dont know our limit,sometimes kite rs give up and dah smpai limit,but actually the limit is still far in front.who knows kan?and myb we can push the limit?:D
Well,.the point i want to say is,if u really think u can success,then u will,coz ur thought will make it happens.it just as simple as that.it is really the same situation as the ghost thing.you believe it happens,then it will:)



remember,it just like the ghosts!;)

July 23, 2008

Don't quit:)


This post is specially dedicated to all my friends,especially bad,read and try to understand what it means,.And to bad,we are always here for u,dear,.I dunno what to say,but if u read this,I want u to know that we really care about u and we really love u,.:)


DON'T QUIT

When things go wrong
As they sometimes will,
when the road you're trudging
seems all uphill,
when the funds are low,
and the debts are high,
and you want to smile,
but u have to sigh,
when care is pressing u down a bit--
rest if u must,
but DON'T YOU QUIT.

success is failure
turned inside out,
the silver tint of
the clouds of doubt,
and u never can tell
how close you are
it maybe near
when it seems so far.

so,STICK TO THE FAITH
when you're hardest hit--
it's when things go wrong
that YOU MUSTN'T QUIT.

July 22, 2008

saya gembira~!:D

Hello everybody,.
hehe,.today I am so happy,I dunno why,dah lame xrs happy cmnih,.hihi:D:D:D
Well,actually dah lame da teringin nak makan sup ketam(ni bukan mengidam,ok),but dulu bz ngn kelas and xm,then bile start cuti,plan nak g nz plak and mcm2 bende laa kene wat,.so..niat nak makan sup ketam tu terbantut cm2,.wuuu~~pas2 after balik nz,memacam plak bende jdk,so kepala sekali lagi serabut,and sup ketam mmg hilang dr pandangan.haha:P
Then,aritu tetibe plak telekom dah masukkan allowance laptop,aud1300,setelah sekian lame tunggu,(since awal thn aritu)so bertambah happy la kan..mac notebook dah terbayang2 depan mate plak nih.,hihihi:D
Smalam lak,cek2 email,3 bg email,ckp bole upgrade phone for free~!wahhh..tu yg best sgt2 tuh..
td g laa city,then i got new phone~!happy gile,.never expect all those..wuuu~~:D:D:D
pas2,dah ade duit tu kan,and alang2 g city,g la victoria market skali,and beli ketam!hihi..then td,g laa masak sup ketam yg dah lameee gileeee nak makan..sgt2 puas hati~~thanx Allah..;)

Hurm,.bile pk2 balik kan,I dunno la kan,but this is what I think,Allah ni sgt2 best tau,.
Ye lah,.after all the sadness..I faced before,.He kinda cm nak pujuk(I dunno whether I choose the right words) me not to feel sad anymore,and all the lucks cm dtg dgn banyaknye,.and sume2 bende that I really want before I get it,.just right after the sadness..Allah is so sweet..and kalo pk2 balik sume2 yg berlaku nih byk sgt hikmahnye,.walaupun ape yg berlaku tu kadang2 sgt2 pedih,but that is His lessons..and the impact mmg sgt mantap kalo kite ambil pengajaran;)So,my point is,jgn salahkan takdir with ape yg berlaku,even pedih cane pon,but pk ape yg Allah nak smpaikan with the task;)

And last but not least,
I am really happy today~!hihi:D

July 21, 2008

unwritten..

Hi everybody,.
Well,.here I go again..It been 3 days my dad passed away..and Alhamdulilah, I accept the takdir dgn redha..:)And tipu lah kan if I say I don't feel anything right now,even I accept the takdir,but still..kerinduan yg amat mendalam kpd seorang bapa is really strong..
Hurm,.last night I got 'sms'es from my sis(the 1st one).And she said she feel she kinda missed a very big thing in her life since abah passed away,.My sis never tell me what she feels or whatsoever,but last night,I can feel she really meant what she said..And from now on,i did promise to my sis,and so did she,to make our mum happy whatever happens..Because we only have mum,if not to my mum,who else..?
Hurm,.to all,I just wanna say,love ur parents since they are still live..Show ur love to ur parents,Don't make mistakes like I did,.when he is gone,br nak rs menyesal..no use..Show that you love ur parents so much,.Kalau ade bf/gf,boleh je kan kite sms or call tetiap hari,if we don't call or sms even for 1 day,dah gadoh2..reason:dah xsayang and whatsoever..but penah tak kite terpikir,bape kali kite call or sms our parents?(ni kalo yg duduk aussie)drp free cap yg aud300 tu,dape dollar kite spend utk call our parents instead of bf/gf?And penah tak parents kite gaduh ngn kite,sbb kite xcall or sms even sehari..?And penah tak derang ungkit kite xsayang derang ke ape?i don't think ade parents mcm tu,.coz they really care and love us,sometimes we do not know what they feel,but as their son/daughter,selagi diorang hidup,appreciate ur parents,.
Yeah,I know,I am not good enough to say that,I just don't want u all people make the same mistakes like I did..


And then,it up to u to decide which is better;)

July 19, 2008

thank you for all ur concerns;)


Hello everybody!;)
hurm,.first of all,i wanna thank to all yg byk bg semangat to me to face His task,without u all,I dunno whether I can face it or not..Thanx again:)
Especially to the girls : iqah,bad,syai,akila and linda, thanx a lot, u mean really a lot to me,.
Thanx tolong watkan majlis tahlil mlm td,thanx to akila tolong belikan barang(even berat kene angkat sorang,hehe), thanx to bad(selaku chef jemputan mlm td,serious speghetti ko sedap),thanx to iqah (tolong potong cili kot,haha),thanx to syai(masakkan dinner,sedap!;)),and last but not least,thanx to linda(ape yg ko wat eh?haha)
And to Kak tmC,thanx a lot,akak banyak bg tarbiyyah kat saya,seriously..even mcm xnampak,but it really helps me;) to syairah(adik),thanx jugak menjemput org dtg,even majlis tahlil tu wat on the spot,but ramai yg dtg..
And to all,thanx byk2 sbb bg semangat,.support,.
Without u all,myb I can't stand anymore,really2 appreciate it!
Whatever happens,life must goes on,isn't it?;)
Thanx again to everybody~




love,
zunitaseriously.

July 18, 2008

A letter for my dad..

Bismillahhirrohmannirrohim..

Tepat pukul 1145am, Jumaat, 15 Rejab,1429H, abah telah pergi meninggalkan dunia ni..
Nothing else I can say,.Allah lebih sayangkan arwah..

Abah,
Myb sepanjang hayat abah,adik xbyk tunjukkan yg adik hargai abah..And in fact,adik xsedar pon yg adik buat mcm tu..Adik selalu je pk pasal mak..xpenah bother pasal abah,.hurm..tu lah,myb cm org ckp,bile ade,kite xpenah nak hargai,but bile dah hilang,br nak hargai..abah,maafkan segala kesilapan adik,selama lebih 20 thn abah mendidik adik,smpai adik berada kat sini,halal kan makan minum adik selama 20 thn ni abah..

Abah,
Adik igt lagi dulu,abah garang sangat..Kalau adik xdapat number 1 dalam kelas waktu exam,mesti abah marah..abah rotan,tp adik xpenah salahkan abah,sebab kegarangan abah tu lah,adik berjaya abah..I'm stand where i am now..Kalau adik dapat markah rendah dlm math,abah marah sgt2,abah kate,jgn bergantung pd otak jepun(calculator),abah cmpakkan calculator depan2 adik,tp itu lah yg membuatkan adik suke blaja math smpai skg,..

Abah,
Adik igt lagi,abah selalu bawak adik pg bazaar ramadhan..bile bulan puase je,mesti xpenah miss,tetiap petang mesti pegi,.menu yg mesti beli,mee kari!adik ngn abah suke sgt makan mee kari,esp kalo ade kerang yg banyak!waahhh!best2!;)pas2 bile malam,lepas buka pose,abah suke g bang kan azan kat masjid utk isyak,sbb org ramai puji suara abah sedap bile azan:)

Tapi tu dulu,mase abah sihat,.bile abah sakit..

Ramai xpedulikan abah..adik tau,abah banyak perlukan duit,adik xkesah pasal duit abah..adik bg sebanyak mn dr duit scholar adik utk abah,utk abah berubat..adik xkesah sume tu,adik just mtk abah sehat je..

Tapi,Allah lebih sayangkan abah..Allah lebih tau ape yg terbaek utk adek,mak and even utk abah sendiri..Abah pergi jugak after 2 years terlantar atas katil..

Abah,
InsyaAllah,adik janji,adik akan tunaikan permintaan abah tu..Adik akan selalu bacekan yassin utk abah,selalu doakan abah..
Adik tanak nangis bile abah pergi,sbb adik yakin,abah lebih gembira kat sana:)

Abah,
Adik doakan abah bahagia kat sana,ditempatkan di kalangan org2 beriman..
amenn~

July 17, 2008

O Allah,.gimme strength..

hurm..i am really2 sad..i dunno who to talk to..i know there are lots of frens outside there willing to lend their ears for me.,.but i just..dunno who to talk to..
after i called my dad this morning,i was really sad when knew his condition right now,.he cant speak,he cant hear,he refuse to eat,he refuse to talk to people,.but..what make me even more sad,.he just wanna talk to me..he recognized me..he called my name..
...
He wanted to say something to me,but I just cant understand what he said,I tried my hard to listen,to understand,but I just can't understand anything..
Then I called my mum,asked her to see abah,(coz my dad live with my step mother),and after a few hours,my mum called me..
She said,.whatever happens,.kuatkan semangat..jgn sedih sgt..coz my mum said,mmg xbole nak wat ape dah..I tried my hard not to cry in front of my mum,but i know my mum was so sad,and I cried again..she said,I am a good girl,jgn nangis,.I cried becoz i know my mum was so sad,.And my mum cried when she heard I cried,..
Abah,
before u cant talk,u did tell me to be a good girl,to be a somebody one day..and I promise to myself,I will abah..eventhough u said u might not be here that time,but u want me to success..And u did say to banyakkan bace yassin for u,banyakkan solat hajat..igt Allah..insyaAllah abah..I will fulfill ur wishes..
Abah,
u might not read this article,but one thing I want u to know,I never regret to be a father like you..whatever u did before,whatever people said before about you..I never bother about it,for me,without u,i am no one.,without u,i wont be here,i am not belong to this world..
No matter how bad are u before,let it be a history..for me,u are a great father..



Abah..
last thing I want u to know,
adik sgt sgt sgt sayangkan abah..
adik xnak abah pergi cepat..
adik xpuas dgn kasih sayang abah..


Abah..
maafkan segala kesalahan adik selama ni eh abah,.
halalkan makan minum adik eh abah..


Abah..





...


adik sayangkan abah..

re-post from blog in fs: this post is specially dedicated to my mum

hurm..skg jam dah menunjukkan kol 1.11pg..tp aku still tak tido ag..tak tau a nape..tgh busan2 tu,..tetibe aku rase aku nak tulis blog ni..blog yang mmg dah lame gile aku nak tulis..it's really bout my life,bout my beloved mum yang mmg banyak gile berkorban tok aku..aku wat mende ni bkn la nak mencapab ke ape,..tapi i juz wanna share my feelings..bout my mum..my beloved mum...

19 years ago..

thanks a lot mum..walaupun dat tym terlalu byk conflicts lam our family,.mak still pat lahirkan ita ngn selamat..alhamdulillah~~ita still igt lagi mak kate kite mmg susah..sampai ita kene tido kat atas roti burger je bab mak takde duit nak beli tilam tok ita..mak kate..ita tak penah minum susu tepung,..ita minum susu F&N je..bab mak kate mak takde duit..mak kate jugak..ita tak penah pon rase pakai pempers..bab nak makan pon mak takde duit..ni kan nak beli pempers..tapi dat tym..ita tak paham sume tuh..yang ita tau..ita nangis malam2..ita slalu susahkan mak malam2..

9 years ago..

ita tak tau nape ita degil sgt,..ita salu lawan cakap mak..sampai mak nanges2 bab ita kurang ajar..tapi ita hati batu..ita wat bodo je,tak tau la nape dat tym ita bute ati sgt..tak nampak pengorbanan mak slame nih..smpai mak penah ckp,ita ni anak derhaka~!astaghfirullahalazim..ita sujud kat kaki mak..ita mtk maaf mak..

6 years ago..

alhamdulillah..ALLAH kurniakan otak yang baik utk ita..ita berjaya masuk sbp..stf kat jhr bahru..ita igt lagi..mak susah payah nak carik duit tok ita masuk situ..ita tau mak takde duit,tapi mak tak penah mengeluh kat ita pasal duit..dat tym ita dah paham susah payah mak..mak cagarkan kebun getah kita..tapi..ita hampirkan hancurkan harapan mak bile after sebulan ita masuk stf,ita nak keluar..alasan senang je:sbb stf cam hell.bodoh.mak nanges bile ita ckp cam2..tapi allah maha Adil,one day ita dgr mak discuzz ngn aah,pasal duit..kalo ita kua stf,mn nak carik duit lagi tok masuk skolah laen??hurm..pas2 ita tersedar,.ita tak patut watmak cam2..ita tak patut kua stf..then ita berazam tok jd sum1..n stf banyak ajar ita sume tuh..buktinye ita jadi head prefect bkn sbb ita mmg nak,..sbb ita nak banggakan mak..mak..tahu lah ape2 kejayaan yang ita kejarslam ni bkn tok ita..sume tok mak,tok our family..tym ita spm,abah lak msk ICU,skt jntung..tp mak tak ckp pon kat ita..mak tanggung kesedihan tu sndr..bab mak nak ita wat the best in spm..mak tanak ganggu emosi ita..mmg byk sgt pengorbanan mak..

2 years ago..

berkat doa mak n usaha ita,..alhamdulillah..i managed to get tm scholarship..takdeape yang wat ita lbh gembira slaen wat mak bangge..mak tau tak,..ita nak g overc ni pon,sbb mak..sbb ita nak wat mak bangga..ita nak ubah nasib family kite..ita sedih bile org mengata mak..ita sedih bile mak sakit sbb keje kuat..ita sedih bile mak rase kecewa ngn ita if im not perform well..sorry mum..ita igt lagi..tym nak result trial kluar,.ita pat teruk sgt2..ita dah giv up dat tym..ita tanak da teruskan wat alevel nih..ita rase nak balik n tolong mak noreh getah,..tapi mak kate..sabar..banyak cabaran tok berjaya..mak nanges bile ita nak balik..bab ita la satu2nye harapan mak tok ubah family kite..kalo ita giv up,..hancur sume harapan mak..then ita tersedar,,..kita bkn org kaye..ita bangun balik n start all over again..mak mmg banyak bg inspiration kat ita..

mak..terlalu banyak pengorbanan mak kat ita slame ni..tak tertulis rasenye dlm blog ni..ita rase grateful sgt2 ade mak cam mak..ita tau kite miskin..tapi ALLAH kurniakan otak yang baek kat ita..nape??sbb ita adetanggungjawab dgn kurniaan tu..ita ade tugas.ita kene gunekan otak tu utk ubah family kite..insyaALLAH mak..ita akan try my best to b sum1..1day..doakan ita ye mak..

I LOVE U MORE THAN EVERYTHING,MUM~!!

new spirit.new hope!;)

Hello..
hurm,.I dunno how to start,.but tetibe mlm td aku terpk,rsnye aku nih dah jauh menyimpang from ape yg aku determine mule2 aku dtg cni dulu,.I want to be someone yg bole banggakan my family,especially my mum and dad,but then ape yg dah berlaku skg?omg zunita,.*sigh*
I went to nz,I enjoyed myself there,smpai terlupe kat my family,xcall my parents,.aku lupe,my dad is dying in malaysia,my mum is worrying with lots of things,but then,aku?enjoy kat nz?apehal ngn aku nih?ita!!wake up!!adeyhh,.pastu menserabutkan kepala ngn bende2 yg xpatut,.hurm,.I shouldnt have done that..mak,abah,.im so sorry..ita lupe janji ita pada mak ngn abah..and to abah,ita rs regret sgt2 sbb g nz..ita xpatut wat cm2,.maafkan ita abah..im really2 sorry..ita tatau ape yg bole ita wat utk abah,.utk tebus my mistakes..Abah,xtau cane nak ckp,betapa 'regret'nye ita skg,.i shouldnt,shouldnt,shouldnt have gone to nz..or at least igt abah yg sakit,.call abah..but ita enjoy sakan,abah terlantar sakit..astaghfirullah..abah,maafkan ita,.
Abah,nothing else I can do to make the things right,but ita janji,it wont happen again..
Ita janji,I wont serabutkan kepala dgn bende2 yg xpatut,I should concentrate on my studies to make mak and abah proud having a daughter like me,.yes,i'll try my best;)
Abah,mak,ini janji ita,.sem ni,ita akan wat my very best for both of u..ita akan cb focus,i'll try my best to make abah and mak happy,or at least make abah senyum:)
Mak,abah,doakan yg terbaek utk ita,.amenn~

July 15, 2008

yes,it's hard and hurt.


Hello,
here i go again,writing in this blog.
...
*sigh*
many people came to me,telling their problem,.and I kinda lend my ears to them,listen and make them comfortable with me,try to solve their problem and if I cant do,just give them a piece of advice so that they will feel better..
But it always when it come to my part,I mean,when I need to face problem myself,I sorta cant handle it.A lot of things playing in my head,.and one thing I hate most about myself,I like to make people happy even I'm sad or hurt.It always like that.But some people just do not understand why I did that,I mean,when I come to a conclusion to do something,they just say I'm emotional,I'm selfish,but they do not know the reason behind it..But I never blame them coz its their judgement,and I do not have any right to stop them.And I,and always me,feels hurt,and keep it myself without anyone knowing it;)
When it's hard,I try my hard to smile,coz I want to make ppl happy..But at the same time,I cant deny myself,what I did really put myself down.Yeah,.only God knows what do i feel..*sigh*
I have a beautiful friendship.But nobody knows..this will happens.She didnt expect,so do I.But I never blame her when it happens,it was just situation that make it worse.To my bestfriend: If one day,you like him,and feel want to accept him,please do so,do not think about me,or other people,coz i wud be happy if you are happy;)

July 04, 2008

new zealand trip : day 1 and 2

Hi everybody!Now I am in Queenstown,New Zealand,having a winter holidays here with my friends. Today is my second day in here, and I am really enjoy in here. Yesterday, I ride so-called-luge which is so similar with the go-kart, but luge just has break,it doesn't have anything else.It was really fun riding the luge,cause the luge started from the top,and u ride it down the mountain,that is why they just have 'break'.lol. To get to the top of the mountain,I need to ride the gondola,which is very similar with the one in Genting Highlands.but here,the forest is so beautiful,with the conifer trees and the snow. It was very cold at the top,and I was freezing!lol. At night, we were going to the city,to buy some foods and 'jalan-jalan' as well,but the city is dull after 5,cause the shops close at 5pm. It was really funny,cause I need to wear so many layers of shirts,pants,socks and thanx God,not the shoes at well.haha. After I reached home,I feel damn sick+_+

This morning,we were planning to go to The Lord Of The Rings film location.But due to the bad weather, we had to cancel the plan.The temperature there can reach down to -10 degree! Then we went to the city(its not city actually,I think its more to small town.haha), and thanx God,it was snowy!:D:D:D.After it was not snowy anymore,we went for a cruise, along Wakatipu Lake. It was really2 nice. It seems like I was watching a movie in the TV because the scenery was damn pretty.The lake water was so clear(blue in colour),until you can see clearly the fishes and marine lives.I can't believe my eyes that time,it seems like the edited version of picture taken.lol.Yeah,that is the power of God,can't deny it;).After the cruise, we planned to do the paragliding,but then due to the bad weather,we cannot do it,then we went back to our motel. And here I go,updating the blog!Hope tomorrow will be a better day for me to enjoy the rest of my holidays in here;)