October 31, 2010

Wishlist




1. Graduate this december with HONOURS
2. Bring my mum jalan2 in Melbourne and makes her happy
3. Shopping in Bandung
4. Nak kawin! *gatal mode*
5. Nak duk kt jepun
6. Nak jadi suri rumah sepenuh masa bole?



p/s: gamba kucing tu xde kaitan pon.saje letak sbb comel.ok, nk sambung wat report.bye.

October 30, 2010

October 29, 2010

Every beginning, there is an ending


It's quite sometime I do not write. Am quite busy, not quite, very busy lately. With endeavour (final year project exhibition), assignments, presentation, lab report, everything is cramped at the end of the semester. I'm very happy coz insyaAllah, this gonna be one of my last moments in here. No more assignment, no more stay at uni till late night, no more headache with the project. But deep in my heart, honestly, I feel the other way around. Thinking of leaving Melbourne in couple of weeks from now makes me so sad... I never thought I will feel this way, but yes, now I admit, I am gonna miss Melbourne..

Everything was started in 2007, the first time ever I stepped in Melbourne. I had no friend, I mean, close friend, I barely knew people, I didn't even know who were my classmates. I'd rather walk alone or doing my work alone. I didn't really care to have company or get to know my coursemates. But that time I didn't really mind though. Yeah, maybe.. I just didn't care to have friends.

In 2008, I started to have close friends. Having vacation in New Zealand made our friendship closer. My best buddies, Iqah, Bad, and my housemates are my friends. Boleh kata rapat jugak la, coz I didn't really have other close friends though. lol. Pity me. Other than that, some people from other courses, and boleh kata bilangan rakan bertambah la sikit. Hehe. But, in uni, I was still alone, barely knew my coursemates.

2009. Everything started to be hard. I mean, the course. The number of students in the course decreased so much, as there were some of them changed course (maybe they didn't have interest on EE anymore), some of them just dropped EE, some of them got separated coz in third year, everything was streamed into the engineering field that you are in. So, from hundreds of students in the course, it was declined to roughly 80 students. Then, I started to know my coursemates, as I have to ask them about studies, assignments, etc. And I started to like to be friend with them. They are friendly. I mean, very friendly:)

2010. Every beginning has its ending. So does the uni life. Now, everything comes to an end. I mean, the time will come. And the friendship getting stronger. It makes me sick thinking I have to leave everything behind. Uni life. Though sometimes it's painful, but it has thousands of memories.



October 16, 2010

5 dolar



Semalam hujan sepanjang hari kat Melbourne. Ikutkan hati, mmg lah malas nk keluar, baik tidur je kt rumah, dengan hujan renyai2 kt luar, pekena plak kopi panas or hot choc. peh~ mantap gile kot. tapi, itu angan2 mat jenin je la kan. disebabkan fyp xsiap lagi and nx week da nk kene present, nk xnk, kene la g uni jugak. sbb xde tiket tram and xbrani naik tram scr 'haram', so aku pon bejalan lah dr umah ke uni, which takes me about 20-25 mins gak la. tahla, dah slalu jalan dr rumah-uni, so xde la rs 20-25min tu lame sgt kot. ok, back to the story, dlm hujan renyai2 tu, aku bejalan la ke uni..

...

after seharian kt uni, petang tu of coz la nk balik kan. so, aku pon jalan la balik.. and still hujan gak time balik tu. then, ms nk cross jalan, kt traffic light, tgh2 hujan renyai2 tu, aku ternampak duit 5 dolar kt tepi2 air hujan yg mengalir kt tepi longkang. then aku tgk kiri kanan xde org, so aku amik la duit tu kan. *well, I dont think I am considered as stealing, am I?* sebabkan duit oz ni made of plastic, so xde la koyak duit tu, even da basah lencun mase tu. I was like.. happy jugak la, sbb xsangka rezeki jumpe duit 5 dolar kan. hehe.



Tapi, tgh2 jalan tu, tetibe some bad thoughts cross my mind. aku cm ade la terpk, 'kan best kalau aku jumpe 50 dolar instead of 5 dolar.. pastu aku cm xpuas ati.. apsal aku jumpe 5 dolar je..xbest betul..' cmtu la lebih kurang aku pk mase tu. then aku cm tersedar, ee..xbaik aku pk cmtu, tu kire da untung la aku jumpe 5 dolar, ade gak 5 dolar kan, drp xjumpe lansung, better la 5 dolar isnt it? tah2, if aku jumpe 50dolar, aku nk 100dolar plak kan? isk3.. jahat tol bad thought ni.. then after tu, aku cm tersedar la,aku xpatut ade bad thought cm tu..and I feel bad la sbb xbersyukur dgn 5 dolar yg aku jumpe memule tu...


mm.. after a while, aku terpk, mmg byk sbnrnye dlm life ni, kita take things for granted and kdg2 kita xsedar, small2 things yang kita slalu xbersyukur.. yelah, kadang2 Allah da bagi the best utk kita, tp kita nk lg lebih, tanpa sedar yg ramai lg org lain yg xdapat pon benda yg kita dpt tu... contoh paling senang mcm freedom.. kita xpenah sedar yang freedom yg kita ade skg adalah nikmat yg paling beeeesar Allah bg pada kita. kita bole pg uni, boleh tgk muvi, makan mcd, pg kelas, main fb, update blog, bc blog org, stalk org, buat fyp, and byk lg la. kalau tgk org2 kt penjara tu, freedom diorang mmg boleh kata zero. duduk dlm pintu besi tu, kawasan terkurung, nk layan fb?jgn harap la. nk update blog?mn nk cr internet connection? sume bende limited. mmm.. itulah, what I am trying to say here is, sentiasa bersyukur dgn apa yg kita ada.. sometimes kita rasa we deserve better, tp, think back dgn apa yg kita ada slame ni, xcukup ke?

Well, actually just nk share cerita 5 dolar tu je td. hehe.

October 09, 2010

Why are u blogging?


Now ni, bole kate zaman boom blogging especially kt Malaysia. Boleh kate 7/10 org mesia ade blog skg (estimation aku je,heh). Macam2 jenis blog ade kalau korang tgk, mcm2 gaye nk tarik perhatian pembaca, and follower. Kumpul follower tu cam da jadi satu trend plak di kalangan blogger skg. tapi, whatever lah kan. kalau tu yg boleh hepi kan derang, pedulik hape plak aku. haha. well, ade blog tu plak, buat crite2 kontroversi, kaki kutuk government, tapi yelah, blog dia kan, suke hati dia lah. haha. ade yg lg menarik yang gune blog wat kontroversi untuk earn money lah pape lah kan. so, mmg macam2 gaye org berblog lah kan. And even anda2 yg membaca ni, im sure korang pon ade blog sendiri kan, what's the reason korang berblogging sbnrnye?

As for me, I'm started to blog since almost 2 years ago. Mase tu, 2nd year, arwah abah sakit tenat sgt2, and I dont have anyone to talk to. Well, basically I have many people around me to lend me shoulder to cry on, tapi aku lg suke diam and pendam sorang2 all my problems. Even my housemates sndr xtau yg arwah abah mase tu sakit tenat, and in fact aku slalu nangis sorang2 dlm shower. lol. ms tu la aku start blogging, sbb aku nk luahkan perasaan thru tulisan. ms tu, aku xkesah pon ade org bace or tak, aku ade ramai follower ke ape, sbb intention aku utk berblog bukan utk femes or utk kumpul follower or utk dpt income ribu2. Tujuan aku dulu utk share feeling aku yang xde sape pon tau ms tu.. And after few days, arwah abah meninggal,.. and aku sedih sgt2 ms tu.. and the day before pon, aku mmg dapat rase arwah abah da xlame, and aku share feeling tu kt blog klik sini utk entry blog tu.. and esoknye, abah pergi.. xtau cne nk gambarkan perasaan ms tu, aku nangis depan org sekejap je, but they didn't know where I went to cry.. aku luahkan jugak kt blog klik sini untuk entry tersebut.. ms tu aku xde wat counter, so aku igt xde sape la bc blog aku, sbb aku pon xde publish kt mn2 also click here.. but few days after that, people asking me about my feelings, and from that, aku tau la ramai rupenye org bc blog aku. So, from that time, aku teruskan berblog. and niat aku still same mcm dulu, just to share what I feel. aku xde terlintas pon nk kumpul follower ratus2, earn duit byk2 dr blog, .. sbb till now, aku sgt puas ati ngn blog aku, sbb sometimes bile aku da xtau nk ckp ngn sape2, aku just luahkan je kt sini. xkesah la org bace or tak, yang penting aku rs lega and feel better =)

Anda pula bagaimana?

Aku wanita biasa




Aku ini wanita biasa
Bisa sakit luka karena cinta
Dingin sepi kerap menyapa
Air mata jatuh lukisan raga

Kadang ku kuat setegar karang
Kadang ku rapuh lemah liar merana

[chorus1]
Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih hatiku

Kekasih hatiku maafkan aku
Aku wanita biasa

Dingin sepi kerap menyapa
Air mata jatuh lukisan raga

Kadang ku kuat setegar karang
Kadang ku rapuh lemah liar merana

[chorus2]
Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih

Maafkan aku bila hasratku keliru
Sulut gairah jiwamu
Ku yang dosakan cinta kekasih
Hatiku… maafkan aku..


I love the lyrics.. It tells everything..

October 06, 2010

The great bond of love

Today, my mum received the parcel that I sent her. Actually, it is a gift for her birthday and it's a handbag - the thing that she really wanted before. And she touched my feeling when she said she never ever imagined, with our the condition now, i mean, financial condition, she can use/get a handbag that costs hundreds ringgit. She always use the handbag that she bought from pasar malam, or pasar tani. I know she really want to have one not-from-pasar-malam handbag, but because of the financial condition, she rather spends her money to other important things. Well, I really love you, mum =) and I am so happy knowing you are very happy with the gift=)

October 04, 2010

Just some random rants

The exam timetable is released today. I dunno whether I should feel happy or said or indifferent with my timetable. My exam will start on 15th nov, 19th nov and the last one will be on 26th nov, which is basically the last day of the exam week. fyi, this coming exam will be the last exam for my undergrad course (insyaAllah, doa2kan la sume berjalan lancar=)) I will start my exam with Radio Frequency (RF), then Communication System, and the last one is DIgital System 4 (DS4). well,.. my friends will be finishing on 11th! I dont even start my exam.. that what I am quite sad.. derang da ronggeng2, tapi akuuuu..?? hukhuk:( but on the bright side, I have more time to study for each subject:) Frankly speaking, the subject that I do this semester not that hectic as previous semester. So, with the time that I have for revision, hopefully I can score higher this time=)

Well, there are couple of important things happened lately. First, insyaAllah, my mum will coming over for my graduation. so yay!!! I already bought the tix for her, and already got the visa=) She will be here from Dec 7 until.. TBA. haha, I have not bought the tix yet for returning to Malaysia. The tix quite expensive though, Melbourne-KL, AirAsia, is about AUD750 one way, which equvalent to RM2100. And yes, I sponsored my mum with the cost =.=' <--need to save more.

If God wills, I will be graduating on Dec 11, Saturday. This year, Melbourne Uni wanna make the graduation little bit grand, with conjunction of 100 years School of Engineering anniversary. So, the graduation ceremony will be held in the REB (Royal Exhibition Building), instead of Willson Hall where they usually does.

Okay, I have been talking about the good things happened or will happen, so let change topic to more serious and stressful ones. lol. Now is the peak of my busyness where I have a lot of things to do. well, I guess I always say that. But this time I have final year project to do, with the report, my other subjects report, the tests, and not to forget, the assignment. But I still consider myself lucky because I dont have much assignment to do, other than comsys assignment, and my subject also not that hard compared to those doing control or wireless. mmm.. but yeah, I'm just hoping that everything is going smooth coz I want to graduate soon!!! coz I have plenty of plans to do after my graduation... jeng...jeng...jeng... haha!

anys, time to study. Congratulations to those who just got engaged, and married, and good luck to people who will be having the exam=)

Cheers.

October 02, 2010

You dont have to read this.

I dunno why, I am so frustrated with somebody when that person thinks I'm not serious doing my work. What that person thinks I am doing all these while? Is that person thinks I am stupid enough not to care about my final mark? I am doing my work EVERY SINGLE day! I have my own time management, fyi, I spent most of my time doing that work! I know what I am doing, can you at least appreaciate at least once whatever I did? Argh. I feel like crying becoz of ur condemnation of my work.

Thank you.